I don't need you

I don't need you. In the depths of sadness and despair, where were you? You weren't there. I don't need you. In the pit of depression where everything seems wrong and falling apart, where were you? You weren't there. I don't need you. For all the times I called you to save me from the days I feel all alone and lonely, where were you? You weren't there. I don't need you. Moments that I needed your company and your loving hands to warm the coldness that's filling up the spaces of my heart, where were you? You weren't there. I don't need you. For all the times I shined the brightest and I wanted you to witness it, where were you? You weren't there. I don't need you. Times when doubts and fears conquered my mind, all I wanted was the truth but where were you?

But when you needed time, I set aside and drop all the things I should do to see you.
But when you feel like nobody's there for you. I was there.
But when you needed attention, I was always available. One dumb text away no matter what time of the day, you were my priority.
And when you needed love, I poured my heart out and showed you the soul like no one else had. It was pure, it was only for you, it was my downfall but it made you happy for awhile. I didn't mind.

I still love you but where were you?
I don't need you. I just don't feel the need to be your number two.
I don't need you.

Words by: Regine Deroca

Missing you

I can"t remember the last time I caught a cold because I rarely sick.The last time was Period pain that was last year which i had to come back early from school.

Last night,I was sleeping because my body didn't felt good after my groceries trip to Giant.
After eating dinner,I took a shower and went to sleep early.Around 9.30 p.m I guess.That's when my roomate came home.
She gone to do laundry.
When she's back,I already had my blanket all over me because it was so cold and I can't barely to switch off the lamp.

She took her hand and put it on my forehead to feel if I have a cold or not.
She gave me some panadol and cough syrup and ask me to sleep.

When she's cleaning her cloth,I cried in the blanket.
Because at that time I miss my mom so much.Even though I can't remember the last time I sick,but I still remember the warmth of my mom's hand and tge love she gave.

Oh,how I miss my mom so much because she always do exactly my housemate do to me when I was sick.

Ok,let's stop here.
I felt like crying  .